Friday, February 24, 2006

Remember The One??

I think every woman has one of these from her past. "The One" -- you know, the one you met and thought I could marry this man and be happy for the rest of my life. The one who seemed to just be perfect for you. He was smart, but not a total egghead. He was fun and funny. He really listened when you talked. And his kisses took your breath away. And when he looked at you, the whole world seemed to fade away. Your world seemed surrounded by flowers and sunshine. And you wanted to just burst into song and smiles at everyone you encountered.

Some people are lucky -- they get to keep "the one." Unfortunately, not me. At least, I didn't get to keep him romantically. I haven't really mentioned Allen before. In some ways, it is just too much.

He once told me my hair was like the sun -- the corona shades of the sun. That is where part of my on-line name comes from. He liked me just the way I was.

We have known each other since high school. Back then, I had a boyfriend and I thought he wasn't really interested in me romatically. We were incredibly good friends. He was an exchange student for a year here in Virginia. He's from Europe.

We kept in touch, seeing each other every 3 to 5 years for the past 16 years. About 8 years ago, we ended up making out at a mutual friend's wedding. About 3 years ago, we ended up sleeping together while I was visiting him in Guatemala.

And then he told me he is bisexual. That was quite shocking, especially because I've dated a lot of gay men (before they came out, of course). And it's a bit damaging to a woman's ego.

Now, we are friends again. But, I still think of him as "the one." I just spent the weekend visiting him in New York and he told me about the new guy in his life. Some French guy -- oh, how I hate the French. So I am still a bit jealous. I have to force myself to smile and be good about it. I figure that is what friends are for.

I wouldn't give his friendship for anything, even a chance a romance. The one time we tried it really almost destroyed me. And now, I just think we would self destruct -- we are not meant to be together romantically. I get that -- I do. Romantically, he's my fantasy, that's all. And every woman needs her fantasy.

I just have to be careful to keep this fantasy version of him to myself. Also, I have to remind myself that no other man will meet that fantasy, but that is what a fantasy is. I will meet someone someday. And he'll be the right guy, not just a fantasy guy.

I did see a palm reader once. She told me I would marry later in life and it would be great love. If I did marry young, that love would end tragicly. So, this is better.

This is somewhat all over the place, but I just wanted to get my feelings out on paper. My birthday is approaching, plus I have PMS. So, believe me, this is better than killing someone.

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Personality Test - A Quick Peek

So, I totally borrowed this from the Peanut Queen. It's just a little information. Pretty impressive in its accuracy.

Your Five Factor Personality Profile


You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"


You have medium conscientiousness.
You're generally good at balancing work and play.
When you need to buckle down, you can usually get tasks done.
But you've been known to goof off when you know you can get away with it.


You have medium agreeableness.
You're generally a friendly and trusting person.
But you also have a healthy dose of cynicism.
You get along well with others, as long as they play fair.


You have low neuroticism.
You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.
Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.
Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.
The Five Factor Personality Test

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Parsnips, beets, and leeks, oh my!

Okay, you know how I mentioned in my first 100 meme list that I try new food each year. Several of you seemed intriged by this thought.

So, I wanted to share this year's new food. I can't believe I forgot to blog when I first tried it. For Thanksgiving, I made this veggie dish with parsnips, leeks, and beets. It was amazing. I couldn't believe it. I totally ate all of them and had them for leftovers over the next few days. I will try to post the recipe at some point.

I used leeks again and just added them to a baked chicken dish. That was pretty good. Last week, I picked up parsnips and beets and make the dish I had before this week. I really liked it.

So, parsnips are the new favorite out of all three. If you have never tried them, I highly recommend baking them with a bit of olive oil, rosemary, salt, and pepper, with a hint of garlic thrown in for good measure.

Hope you all enjoy!

Friday, February 03, 2006

Movie of My Life - Who knew

Who knew the movie of my life was a cult classic?

The Movie Of Your Life Is A Cult Classic

Quirky, offbeat, and even a little campy - your life appeals to a select few.

But if someone's obsessed with you, look out! Your fans are downright freaky.

Your best movie matches: Office Space, Showgirls, The Big Lebowski

If Your Life Was a Movie, What Genre Would It Be?
I will tell you that I took it twice. And the other time, it was "black movies." Hmmmm... These things are bit odd.

Wednesday, February 01, 2006

State of the Union - Just My Quick Thoughts

Let me first admit that I didn't actually watch the State of the Union last night. I am not a big fan of the Dubya and don't listen to him speak any more than absolutely necessary. But, I did read about the speech this morning.

Here's some quick thoughts on items he mentioned:

Oil - We don't get much oil from the Middle East. But, we do use too much of it in this country. So, why did he not mention energy conservation, promotion of public transportation, and encouragement of the average American making changes to lessen their consumption? Why didn't he mention having each government agency evaluate their use of our national resources and find ways to conserve? It could be as simple as turning the lights off in every government building when noone is there. Yet, he proposed nothing that would require people or government to change for the overall betterment of society. I did actually think the research is great idea.

Foreign Policy - I can't believe he even mentioned Hamas in the address. And he then proceeded to tell them what to do. I don't think it's that simple and it is probably not why the Palestinians people elected them. I just found it to be a bizarre statement.

Pork Projects - Does he really think Congress is ever going to give him line-item veto power? God knows it will only be used as a political weapon. It really eliminates some checks and balances and this government isn't honest enough for that amount of power.

Competitiveness Initiative - Sounds good. What I found interesting is that he's suddenly promoting science, while in the past basically agreeing that Creationism/intelligent design should be taught in schools. It's not a science by any stretch of the imagination. He is really contradictory in this manner. I'm all for research - but you know this doesn't include any stem cell research or anything controversial. They don't trust women to make their decisions about their bodies and I don't see him promoting any science that allows women any choice.

And on a sad note, I saw Alito was confirmed into the Supreme Court. It really is the end of an era and I fear where we are heading in the next decade.